From watching my friends relationships and the drama that they go through, plus my own relationship experience makes me want to be single. I have watched many friends get blinded by love and lose control over their life. I can't live like that because I am perfectly content with how my life is. Why does your life have to be rearranged because you're in a relationship?  I work a lot, pay my own bills, have my own house and car, which all of the above I have worked hard to get on my own. I guess you can call me a strong independent woman who wears that as a badge of honor. I can survive without a man to take care of me or pay for things. Most men find this very intimidating, but I am who I am and will not change for anyone. You will either accept me as I am or don't be a part of my life. My attitude is what is and I am very blunt about it. 

Anyhow, this is my dilemma. It appears to me that wanting to be single is not acceptable in today's society. I don't think this is in my head because I am asked all the time where my boyfriend is and when I reply that I don't want one, I get looked at like I am a monster. Someone once told me that there is something wrong with me because I don't want a boyfriend. But why does there have to be something wrong with me because I choose not to have a relationship?

A little more about me is I have a slight mental disability. It takes a long time for me to understand things and some decision making is impossible for me. This disability has always interfered with all of my romantic relationships as my significant other does not have the patience or want to understand. I am like whatever about it because if there is a man out there that will accept me with this disability and has the understanding and patience I require, God will send him to me. If I am able to beat the odds of my disability and work hard for what I want rather than the doctors predicting I'll be in a nursing home all my life, surely there is a man out there that can deal with my disability as I have.

Besides the point, I still don't want a relationship and all the ones that seem to fall into my lap and sucker me into one, I am getting real sick and tired of. They all end up in the same old, sad story with me hurt and the guy feeling no kind of remorse but some sort of unfulfillment. So this is the question really, is there something wrong with me for not wanting to try for a relationship?  Is it ok to be alone and not want to be with someone?